i dont know anymore. the more i find out, the less i want to know. its a sad world out there, so yes, ultimately, ignorance is bliss. but noone can stay happy forever.

alas, the simple joys of life are so difficult to come by.

yeap. i kinda miss laughing every few minutes.

sometimes i think we may need another world war, or a flood perhaps, to purify the world again.

My Kaleidoscope


Words, colours, thoughts, sound, merge in my eyes.
I feel the melody of pure bliss,
wading through its ephemeral mist.

Then I see the blackness in their eyes,
the fast retreating glow of white.
Suddenly I'm standing in a sea of green,
foaming waves crashing against my calloused feet,
the salty air thick, stinging

my throat, choking my words. I took two steps away
from the cacophony to calm my senses.
I turned, walking back into the warm glow of yellow;
no, it was never worth it.

i wish there was this device that could record your thoughts 24/7 wherever you go. it'd be so much easier. i keep forgetting what i wanted to type.

Henry went to barca to win the Champions League and he got it, plus a league cup and la liga. wtf man. hes far from over it.

wenger what a big mistake.

dayemmmmm i forgot how fantastically awesome it was to hang out with the same gang again. basketball today was great. no words to describe it. havent had this much fun in AGES. well, thats mostly cause army isnt much fun anyways but still, this would rank high in my list of memories of adolescence.

thanks for today's memories guys.

we're happy for you, but are you happy?

Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothing feels better then hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly
Call up you're brothers and sisters and friends
We'll go back to the place where the night never ends
We'll remember the fires
The burning car tires
Boy how in the hell did we get here?

So why don't you meet me down behind our old school
We'll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavalier we used to be
That beautiful insanity the apathy surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade, away
Over and over and over again
We sat down for a minute grew up into men
Now we're putting out fires and changing car tires.
Man how in the hell did we get here?

So why don't you meet me down behind our old school
We'll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavalier we used to be
That beautiful insanity the apathy surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away this time.
And we'll never get back what we gave away
When we stare at that fire in our eyes.

Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothings as real as our old reckless ways
When we drink by the fires the burning car tires
Bad girls and good liars, the dreams we conspired
The days we went crazy, the nights wild and hazy
Man how in the hell did we get here?

So why don't you meet me down behind our old school
We'll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavalier we used to be
That beautiful insanity the apathy surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away.

sometimes, only losers win.